It was my second semester in nursing; the timer beeps after I put yellow pin on the heart of the cadaver I’m working when our professor in Anatomy suddenly called my attention and asks me this question.
“Since it’s your last item the question is, are you afraid to die Ms. Durana?” I responded, “As an ordinary human being, no sir.”
This article is full of dulls and wrong grammars as I expected from my last. I admit I don’t write well, what I need to do is to express everything, the least thing I communicate. So I’m giving a warn before I get started, I do not intend to hurt feelings nor disagree with other beliefs in this article. I have lots to argue but this is just some.
I see death as an event in human life that some person is afraid of. The only thing they’re escaping. The only thing they’re waiting. People are always people, not too much but too lack instead.
Seeing light that will lead you to the door of heaven. Final judgment they called no remaining choices. Are you in or rejected? Sinful ones
Face it or not, escape or meet it half way the end will be the same. Either you are in hell or welcome to heaven. Will you do things that will make you happy or remarkable or things that will satisfy your own self?
It’s like you get a death pardon two minutes late after or you got a good advice that you didn’t take. Stunning yet full of sarcasm, beautiful somehow ironic.
And here are my chosen things my bucket list two years ago:
Top 1: Believe in new beliefs
Meeting new people with high risk mental capacity, it is really good talking to them. Learning new things, knowing what word should be. If I could be a Pragmatist the world will be afraid of me. Thank you law students and to my argue buddy.
Top 2: Revolution for the country
Physically not an activist but mentally yes, for our poor country the only thing needed is a revolution. Wouldn’t it be nice if the new generation is the new leaders? Or the worst thing there will be a rise for the new government officials who are not solicitors.
Top 3: Establish a name
Everyone wants it. I don’t want my name to be as it, dreaming to be a medical doctor to help people bio areas is my goal. Or if not, this M.D brought me to purse a masters degree and Phd in several fields as well as to take law to be a public attorney. But they say, “there is no money for me” they way I think.
Top 4: Find a man that will break my silence
I do not prefer to search the good thing he came. Realizing I was in wrong course drained the juices in my brain. As I reach in my second year all I want to finish this and take up Pre-Med. No offense but my course is really boring, no new learning it’s just a repetition of whole thing. Thanks to my argue buddy my brain didn’t stop working, my medical vocabulary is still updated and lastly, we never stop argue for something around us.
Top 5: Climb and run with him for the rest of my life
This is the last thing I want to do if I’m already dying. Climb in Mt. Pulag with the man that I will cherish forever and watch the sea of clouds until he realize I stop breathing.
Again, I gave a warning this is just a bucket list. Things you want to do to fulfill your life. Lists that would help you to learn, accept and move forward in life. Teaching not to regret but face the current situation.